FUCK GODAMN XANGA! 

I just typed out a HUGE story catching up on everything that's been going on in my fucking life for the last month and when I go to post it, xanga had logged me out at some point and when I logged back in, all my work was gone.  And I DON'T FEEL LIKE TYPING ALL THIS HORSEPISS AGAIN!!! 

FUCK YOU XANGA.COM!!!

[EXTREME NOISE TERROR - Retrobution]

Wow.  Been over a month since I've made an entry here.  Yeah things have been fuckin busy.  Starting pretty much with Andy quitting the band around the 1st of November.  Wyn called me up and quit today (December 8th) and honestly, that's not really bad news.  I'll miss Wyn and all, but musically speaking, it was just trimming the grissle off our sound.  We do not plan on replacing him unless someone can just walk in and blow us away with mad skillz or whatever.  Otherwise, we're going to utilize and pretty much wallow in the much rawer and more focused one-guitar approach.  There were a few things I didn't like about Wyn's playing anyway.  The drumming situation went from wierd to stupid pretty fast with 2 candidates giving us the runaround until we gave up on them.  Blake (guitarist from Porn & Grenades) actually came and tried out, which was a FUCKING BLAST (!!!)  but not very productive from a work standpoint.  Blake is fast as hell, but not very tight or focused.  And as much as we thrive on chaos, we want the drums to be tight at the very least.  NOT TO FEAR THOUGH!!  We have a pretty cool surprise regarding the empty drum slot.  Stay tuned.....

Work has been wierd and unpredictable lately.  The new owner has cut me back to an "as needed" work schedule.  To be honest......it's awful.  I'm pretty miserable.  I love this job and I love everyone I work with.  I even like the new bossman, Brent.  Alot!  But the new work schedule is bad bad bad.  I can't make a friggin living with these hours.  And I can't get another day job since I never know when they're going to call me in.  And if I work at night, the band might as well call it quits.  It sucks.  I'm trying to make do the best I can.  I'll be getting a new (used actually) Blazer soon and I'll be having to pay for that, insurance, plus my phone (which is pretty outrageous), a new place to live, the rent on the jam room and then there's Xmas.  I really don't know what I'm going to do

Enough whining.  I'm going to go stick my dick in something.........

1:23 AM

[PUNGENT STENCH - For God Your Soul......For Me Your Flesh]

"......Just let me rot....."

There are times in my life when the shit piles on so thick, I think I'm gonna fucking drown.  I'm glad that in this particular instance that I'm driven to fight, kill and conquer despite the difficulties.  I don't think I have ever felt so confident that I will emerge on top in my life.  I refuse to be held down or held back and I don't comprehend failure.  Give me some time.  You'll be hearing about the shit I'm working on. 

10:13 AM

[UNHOLY GRAVE - Contradiction]

Well I woke up about an hour ago and I can't go back to sleep.  Weird.  No doubt if I had to work or something, I wouldn't be able to hold my eyes open.  Why do I have to be a walking talking bloody chunk of irony??

The Goatwhore show last night went extremely well.  I expected all sorts of disasters to occur and every attempt the powers that be threw at us was thwarted and avoided, including nearly having a wreck on Airways on the way to the show.  Besides my guitar cutting out twice, I think everything went perfectly.  Really the only thing that kinda bummed me out was Leslie and Daimon didn't show up.     I was really hoping they would at least come by and stick their head in for a minute or two. Anyway, we got compliments and praise from a few unexpected people, including Mr. Jash Braddock from LDP/Epoch Of Unlight, who made my night by saying many good things about BTM and our performance.  Those of you who don't really know Jash.....he hates everybody and thinks most bands suck.  And he's one of the few musicians I respect in Memphis.  Getting praise from him seriously inflated my head.  Speaking of LDP, those dudes were absolutely devestating.  Lev screamed pure insanity while the band wove a dark spinning vortex of pure heaviness and the room broke into a sea of bobbing heads, banging fists and slamming bodies.  Incredible.  I stood on a chair in the back of the room and watched and was blown away.  I really hope LDP can break out of Memphis cuz they fucking rule and they deserve it.  Cattle Decapitation did their thing, which I regret I am indifferent towards.  There's no doubt they are amazing musicians.  But aside from watching them noodle on their instruments, I haven't much interest in that band really.  Goatwhore were seriously in their element and were tight as a fucking machine, cranking out song after song of pure evil.  They have improved so much since the last time i saw them.  At this moment, they are seriously one of the best live bands I've ever seen.  Sammie Duet is a fucking rock/metal guitar riff GOD and is just flawless while screaming and playing 7 billion miles an hour.  And Ben Falgaust is still my vote for best vocalist ever.  Good things are happening for this band.  And they deserve it. 

We got asked to play at the New Daisy with some other bands on November 6th.  Hopefully this will happen.  I'll keep ya posted.  In the meantime, I'm gonna try to get back to sleep.

-Scott

10:35 PM

[PROSTHETIC CUNT - Fuckin Your Daughter With A Frozen Vomit Fuck Stick]

Haven't been to work in a week.  Lovely.  Stay up all night.  Can't sleep.  No $$$.  Can't even pull the truck outta the driveway cuz I have no gas money.  I'm about to lose my B.C. Rich Warlock to the Pawn Shop cuz I can't afford to get it out.  Yup.  This is lovely.  Jen keeps calling me.  She's coming back this weekend for a short visit.  She wants to make up.  "I'm sorry.  I was wrong.  I know I was wrong.....blah blah blah....."  What should I do?  Don't answer that. 

One week from tonight:

Come on out to the Hi-Tone to see us playing with 2 of the best live bands from the south (Legion Of Divine Punishment & Goatwhore).  As well as a fairly cool vegetarian gore/grind/metal band from somewhere up north.  Fun for the whole fam damily.